In 2024 I was experiencing a feeling to clear. I kept getting nudges to sell things, sort through them and reduce as much as possible. Then came the urge to step away from recurrent commitments that held me to the location I was in. Gradually the final step was the feeling to quit my job with the idea that I would maybe work on my own ‘stuff’ at a remote working space. Within a few months I had absolutely no commitments, for what seemed like no apparent reason, other than it felt right.
That was when a friend asked, would you like to come travelling to South East Asia? My answer was yes, it felt right, and unlike previous times I had travelled I did not feel like I was ‘running away’, it simply felt like the next step, and potentially the reason I had been letting everything go.
My friend and I were on our flight to Thailand just 6 weeks later, with no return date or expectation of how the travels may unfold. As with the months prior, I felt strongly centred and trusting in my intuition. I knew that I was drawn to visit Cambodia during this trip, and whilst in Thailand I got a strong pull to book a Yoga Teacher Training in Bali. Booking the teacher training vastly impacted the timings for the trip and it meant that my friend and I were to split on our travels and I would go to Cambodia alone, moving through it at my own pace. This would turn out to be entirely necessary.
Visiting Cambodia in December was highly emotive. The first few days I was taken to many temples of Siem Reap, my driver left me to myself and allowed me to wonder at my own pace. Inevitably there was plenty of different energies throughout most of it, not that I was able to decipher it per se, but it felt important to be witnessing all of it. At the end of these few days I visited a ‘killing field’ for the first time – now a memorial/museum dedicated to remembering the genocide that occurred across Cambodia in the mid to late 70s. I would go on to visit further killing fields and prisons that showed and held many stories of the millions that died. I felt called to offer forgiveness to the perpetrators of these crimes (I would discover later that someone had set a blueprint for this about 10 years earlier).
Cambodia impacted me greatly and I felt emotionally wrung out when leaving the country just two weeks later. What followed was another 3 months of travel through Vietnam and Bali, but the way I felt was entirely different. I found I was unable to make decisions, I was flying around from one idea, unable to settle, unable to feel at peace, my intuitive knowing felt hidden under a tide of restlessness. It was an emotional rollercoaster and I had moments where I was unsure that I would ever remember feeling connected to source, I was really struggling just to exist. It was not too dissimilar to how I felt before beginning my original healing story. I knew I needed to see Louisa and I knew I was not able to make any other clear decisions about my next steps so coming home seemed like the only real plausible option after a while and by mid-March I was back in the UK, booked in to see Louisa and still living in a chaotic head and body until I saw her in mid-April.
Upon returning to the UK I had had a couple of people mention that I looked very different and not myself. As I arrived at the farm I felt as if I had never been there before and I was incredibly nervous to be having a session with Louisa. I took her through my trip and what had been playing out in life. At this point I had become pretty certain that I hadn’t followed my intuition and that had been the beginning of losing touch with source, and thus the confusion. Louisa suggested that I release all the stuff I had picked up from everyone else whilst travelling, so that we might actually be able to see just me (I had picked up a yellow glow among other things). While spending the rest of the day and night releasing I was woken up by a cheeky, impish energy, and with it came the visuals of the Hindu stone statues present in Cambodia and Bali. While the energy was happy that I had seen it, it very much did not want Louisa to know it was with me.
The next morning, the first thing Louisa and I spoke about was this impish male energy that was with me. Louisa was quick to recognise it as a type of monkey energy, bounding about everywhere, restless and causing confusion. It was then that the understanding came – I had lost my ability to connect fully to my intuition immediately after leaving Cambodia. I could entirely relate to this energy she was describing it as I had been living with it for the past few months (I had obviously picked it up and brought it back home with me). I was able to locate its origins to the ‘monkey temple’ in Cambodia. As we felt into the monkey energy it was clear that this energy was part of a heavy cloud of lost souls- the victims of the genocide. They felt lost, confused, shocked and abandoned, not knowing why they had been tortured and killed. This energy had been swirling around and mixing with the energy of the torturers that had killed them since the atrocity had happened. As there was such a mix of energy the souls of the victims had lost touch with who they truly were and the cloud that gathered had become mixed up, lost and confused in its nature.
Desperate to find a ‘home’ the souls had settled in and around temples especially the ‘monkey temple’. They were unable to recognise their own individual souls. It was clear when Louisa spoke to the energy and reminded them of their true nature, it almost felt like a shock that rippled through them and then a moment of recognition. They had been completley invested in the collective energy created under the circumstance of their mass deaths. After understanding what had happened to them they said that they wanted to go home. Louisa reminded the energy that they could return to themselves, their soul journeys and that the temples were in fact not their homes. There was so much healing that could come for them if they were willing to release the mistaken idea that they were responsible for their own deaths, if they could forgive those that had caused their deaths, and if they were willing to return back to their own soul’s journey. Geoff had joined us to help hold the energy as we moved through this, he felt it was important for the souls to be shown how they may move through this process, so we showed them how. We then asked that the knowledge of this be spread to any other places in Cambodia where the energy/cloud may have gathered and to leave the people it may have entered since its creation, myself included.
I eventually stopped relating to the energy internally and began to hear Louisa talking to it rather than experiencing it myself. I knew then that the energy had left me but there was still remnants for me to release and fully clear out. We sent light through the many locations I had visited, as the news spread that the lost souls could return to their own journey if they chose and the universe was supporting them in this.
We weren’t quite finished, however, the next morning when seeing Louisa she saw this same monkey energy in a different location and after describing it to me it I knew she was seeing two particular places in Bali, again near temples and Hindu shrines and statues. She described the angry energy of the monkeys, trying to control their immediate surroundings and we once again spread our light to these places, reminding them that they were safe and showed them how they could set themselves free. We finally asked the universe to help any place that may hold this energy be made aware of what had happened to them, and to support them in their release.
It felt like an immense privilege to be able to bring this energy and its story into the open and to Louisa so that it was able to be helped. I knew that following my intuitive nudges had allowed this to happen, even when very few choices had made logical sense to me, and this has simply reinforced my trust which I am entirely grateful for.
Annabel 17.04.2025
Aurora Gatherings 